Down again

I was on the mend. ......

I turned 33 last week and it was a special day.

But for some reason, this birthday bothered me.
I was very emotional about it.
I had my feelings hurt that some people forgot.
I realized that I am now officially middle age.
My body is changing in ways I am not happy about (even though I am working out).
My hair never looks good (hormones maybe)
And my toe was still hurting from breaking it 9 weeks ago and I still couldn't do any cardio (which I need to balance out my mood swings).

However, this past Monday my toe was finally feeling better and I was able to run a mile on and this made me so happy!

Then the next blow came.

While at the gym on Monday, I realized that my eye was a little sore and that I had a stye. I went swimming and by Monday afternoon I had to call the eye doctor. Good thing I went. By the time I got there, my eye was pretty swollen. I had a stye in both the upper and lower lids and it was a type of infection that spreads across the eyelids. Not just a normal stye (of course not, it's me).

I was put on an eye ointment and Omincef because it couldn't just be cleared up with eye drops. I was told to put hot compresses on it and to rest.

Tuesday morning I woke up and it was much worse. By Tuesday afternoon, it looked horrible. I had to go back to the doctor and she said "you have a doozy of a case". Now that didn't make it any better. The pain in my eye made me just want to cry. She said that it had turned into cellulitis of the eye and we had to get it under control or I would have to be put in the hospital on IV antibiotics. I freaked a little needless to say. So, she put me on Bactrim on top of the other medications that I started on Monday. I am on so many meds right now, and I hate the way I feel.

Thankfully, my little brother came and picked up the girls and they stayed with my mom and dad last night so I have been able to rest a little. My eye looks horrible (I won't put a picture up I promise) and I have a low grade fever that is making me just a little irritable.

My sweet granulated sugar came and brought me a happy today. Some soup and crackers, ice cream, flowers, and of course acidophilus!!! That made smile!!

Emi turns 5 tomorrow and Bryan is leaving to go out of town tomorrow. Pray that I feel better so I can make her have a special day. She is super excited about turning 5. I think she thinks that there will be fireworks that are going to go off or something. She had gymnastics in the morning and she is excited about that because she gets to be thrown in the pit for her birthday. We bought her a new gymnastics mat for her present so I know she is going to be excited about that.

Enough whining. I know God is in control and this too shall pass. I can't get Adam Cunningham's song out of my head. It is keeping me going right now. If you don't have his cd - get it - it's awesome!!

Don't Let Go
Don't you back down from wherever you are
You know the ending is never that far
Hold onto Jesus with all of your might
He's more than able to conquer the night
He'll give you strength like you've never known
Stand up, stand strong don't you ever let go
Don't Give In
Don't Give up until the end

http://www.myspace.com/adamcunninghamband

Jesus sees me and hears me crying out to Him.

So all this to say, I'm not giving up or letting go and I will keep trudging along and praising God the whole time. In pain anall without doubting that God is in control.

Friends Forever

I have been blessed with so many great friends throughout my life. One of which stopped by and we were able to spend some brief time together. She is someone that I know I will be friends with forever; no matter what distance separates us.

I can talk to her everyday or I can go a week or more without talking to her. It doesn't matter. We always pick up exactly where we left off without thinking twice about it. We are completely real with each other and I love her dearly.

K - Thanks for being a great FRIEND in the midst of all of our chaos. Love you girl!!!!

Here's the gang:

Nighte, Emi, Northe

Graci, Payton, Dari, Nauxxe, Davi

Safely Home

We made it home safe and sound Sunday after a very long and exhausting trip. Shawn looked great and it was very special to be able to be there and watch his graduation. My wonderful inlaws kept the girls and Bryan went down to be with them on Saturday and Sunday. They were waiting patiently for me to get home. It was a good break to be away from them, but I was more than ready to hold all of them and squeeze them in my arms. Here are a few pics of Airman First Class Shawn Roberts - so proud of you boge!!!!

It's Not Dry Heat

I am in Texas for Shawn's graduation from Air Force Basic Training. He is going into the Guard and I am super proud of him. We got here late Wednesday night and have been through all the ceremonies and we will leave tomorrow to drive home. Thanks to those of you that have been praying for him and for the ones that wrote him while he was in. They meant the world to him!!!

As far as the heat, it is 97 and so humid you sweat just walking to the car. So whoever said it was dry heat out here, LIED!!!!

Pool Party

I am sooooo blessed to have such wonderful friends. Our pool party today was truly a great day! We had 16 kids and 9 adults I think and all in all, everyone stayed happy all day. You guys are the best and I hope that you had as much fun as I did.

The weather was beautiful until the last few minutes when the storm hit and we all heard a huge lightening strike. Pray that my mom and dad's insurance covers things. It hit the downstairs tv, phone and all of the pool filter and pump :( So sad!!! Other than that, my mom's house survived our clan!!

Thanks again for everyone coming and for just being my friend!

And Amy.... I know you say I don't like little gifts like you got me, but you obviously don't know me as well as you think. I LOVE my stuff!!! It truly made me smile. You are an amazing person and friend! Love you girl!!!

McWane Center

We had so much fun at the McWane Center yesterday. My girls go to enjoy all of their cousins going with them. Will, Brooks, Anna Reed and Gates were all able to be there with us. Amy brought Anna Reed and Gates and my mom brought Will and Brooks. (poor Jen was home with her back). My mom's birthday was yesterday so she said it was fun enjoying all of her grand kids. We didn't get to spend as much time as we would have liked to, but we will be going back for sure. Here are a few pics for you... (I swear Payton and Brooks are twins) :)

Look what I did mommy!!!!

I know several of you have been in the position I was in yesterday, and I honestly just had to laugh and grab my camera (see below).

Graci fell asleep yesterday at the McWane Center during the IMAX movie (which was incredible!!) so needless to say, she didn't quite get her nap out. So when we came home, I put her in her bed and told her she needed to go to sleep. She played for a while and just talked to her animals. After 45 minutes she started to get aggravated and I could tell she just wasn't going to sleep.

So when I opened her door, this is what I found:

My child had figured out how to take her cute little bubble off along with her diaper. She had proceeded to throw everything out of her crib and just smiled when I walked in. When I asked her where her clothes were, she proudly held them up for me to see along with her big grin!!! It was too funny!!! (thankfully, the diaper was clean and dry)

This one it is..along with random thoughts

I guess this is the one I am going to use for now. I am so in love with butterflies and dragonflies and these colors anyway. It just fits me for right now.

Please be praying. Many of you know that I broke my toe 4 WEEKS AGO and it is still hurting me pretty badly. I am so tired of hobbling around, not being able to fully teach my class, my toe looking like a vienna sausage at the end of the day, and just being in pain!!!!! I know it is such a little thing, but man you never know how much you use a toe until you can't :( I am trying to not let it get me down, but some days I just feel like being down.

Next Wednesday, my brother Shane and I will leave on a trip with my parents to go to San Antonio. My little brother, Shawn, is graduating from basic so we are making the trip out there to see him and the ceremonies. Now, the trip is going to take around 14 hours or so, so that doesn't sound like fun for me since I don't do well in a car for that long. Pray we have a safe trip and that it doesn't end up like the Griswold's Family Vacation. Because I promise you, if anyone could do it, we could!!!

what do you think???

this one or the polka dot one??? just wondering opinions from people??

Fun in the Sun

Ever since my parents got their pool, that is all my girls want to do... go swimming!!! And thankfully they have all gotten really good at it.

Emi is jumping all the diving board now (and doing flips off of it) and not using any floaties at all.

Payton learned to swim last week and she is super proud of herself, as I am also. She started swimming in the deep end now without floaties so I am really having to watch her. She swims underwater and won't come up for air. That is what we are working on now. She doesn't stop to breathe until she reaches the side. She's a fish!!!

Graci is pretty funny too. She puts her floaties on and then tells me "no!". She is off to the water by herself. She either falls in and swims or goes to the steps and walks in. She is floating all over the place.

Here are a few pics of my babies, and one of Brooks with Payton.